Blase A. Sodano was a name given to me at birth It was later revised to include the I during the peak of word processing technology as not to become Blasé from the intervention of autocorrect. Mistakes were a formative part of my upbringing. in this page i will detail my descent from the grace of the catholic god into the realm of nonconformity, gender deviance, and black magic.
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from the ages of 7 TO 14 I was given a series of psychological diagnosis ranging from attention deficit hyperactivity disorder, to BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER, UNDIFINED MOOD DISORDERS, MANIC DEPRESSION, POST TRUMATIC STRESS DISORDER. SUBSEQUENTLY I WAS PERSCRIBED A SERIES OF PSYCHIATRIC DRUGS WHICH NOT ONLY RESHAPED MY PSYCHOLOGICAL STATE BUT ALSO CAUSED CHANGES IN MY BODY. BOTH OF WHICH I FOUND BOTH JARRING AND DISTURBING.
i STRUGGLED WITH MY IDENENTITY IN BOTH BODY AND MIND FROM A YOUNG AGE. i COULD NOT FIND COMFORT IN MY PHSYCIAL APPERANCE, SEEK SOLACE IN MY PSYCHY, OR RELY ON THE FAMILIAR MEMORIES WHICH I HARBORED FROM MY CHILDHOOD. AS A RESULT I LEARNED TO FAMILAIRIZE DISCOMFORT, MAKING THE STRANGE FAMILIAR, AND THE FAMILIAR STRANGE. i CELABRATE DEFORMATION PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY AND SPIRTUALLY.
my RELATIONSHIP TO GENDER (AS MOST THINGS) WAS DISSONENT. I HAD A TURBULENT RELATIONSHIP WITH THE MEN IN MY LIFE AS THEY WERE RIDDLED WITH VIOLENCE. I ALSO CAME TO DISTRUST THE WOMEN IN MY LIFE BECAUSE OF THEIR FIDELITY TO THESE VIOLENT MEN AS WELL AS THEY SYSETEMS OF ABUSE WHICH THESE MEN HAVE CREATED.
i DECIDED AS A RESULT OF THIS SORT OF DISCOMFORT TO BECOME A LIVING ICONOCLASM. i BEGAN TO DISMANTAL THESE IDENTIES WITHIN MYSELF OR AT LEAST ASPECTS OF THEM WHICH MYSELF AND MANY OTHERS, HAVE BEEN HARMED BY. i WANT TO ENVISION A WORLD OUTSIDE OF THESE DESTRUCTIVE SOCIAL INSTITUTIONS, A CELEBRATION OF THE SUFFEREINGS WE HAVE ENDURED BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY THE SHAPES IN WHICH THEY HAVE MOULDED US.
